Awful Realization

I'm all alone again.

That is, the friends that were, aren't anymore and the lovers that could have been, can't be anymore.

I don't have anybody left to confide in anymore...they're all either too busy with their own lives, or they don't care about my problems anymore, or they've grown to be even more selfish than I myself am (which is hard to do). Outta sight really does amount to out of mind in most cases.

The sadness washes over me like a wave: I don't like being alone.

And I actually chose this path. Somebody anybody tell me why.