Back in the Habit
No, I'm not becoming a nun! Just get that outta ya head.
I'm too evil for that...I gave in last night to my baser urges, and I'm kinda mad at myself for it today. I had been trying to avoid doing the things that I know are "bad" for me lately...but I guess, one step at a time is easier. I actually did give up smoking: this Friday will make 19 weeks. I have cut myself down to only drinking 2 cans of mountain dew a day. I have increased myself by taking vitamins and drinking a hella lot more water than I had been.
Today I began running...again! I ran so hard today that my lungs actually started to hurt. Could have been the slight chill in the air too, but who knows.
But it's very difficult to give up the other two things that I do that I think are "bad" for me...ironcially enough, they were the two things that I thought it would be easier to let go of, but apparently because I'm not "technically" addicted to them (read: I'm not physically addicted), they are much harder to shake. And here I thought giving up smoking and caffeine would be the harder things to give up. Turns out, I was wrong--not to say that quitting smoking was easy, because boy, it WAS NOT!!! but comparatively speaking, that was easier. I think the reason is simply that I have to constantly remind myself not to smoke or drink too much pop (yes, I'm from the west coast...it's POP!! damnit!), whereas with drinking and sex it's not a constant temptation; it's only an occasional one.
Thus, it's much easier to think you've given up something that is only an occasional temptation because you can go really long periods of time without really "craving" it than it is to actually give it up. Further, it's much easier to see that you've given up some addiction when it presents the "craving" hourly or daily.
I'm too evil for that...I gave in last night to my baser urges, and I'm kinda mad at myself for it today. I had been trying to avoid doing the things that I know are "bad" for me lately...but I guess, one step at a time is easier. I actually did give up smoking: this Friday will make 19 weeks. I have cut myself down to only drinking 2 cans of mountain dew a day. I have increased myself by taking vitamins and drinking a hella lot more water than I had been.
Today I began running...again! I ran so hard today that my lungs actually started to hurt. Could have been the slight chill in the air too, but who knows.
But it's very difficult to give up the other two things that I do that I think are "bad" for me...ironcially enough, they were the two things that I thought it would be easier to let go of, but apparently because I'm not "technically" addicted to them (read: I'm not physically addicted), they are much harder to shake. And here I thought giving up smoking and caffeine would be the harder things to give up. Turns out, I was wrong--not to say that quitting smoking was easy, because boy, it WAS NOT!!! but comparatively speaking, that was easier. I think the reason is simply that I have to constantly remind myself not to smoke or drink too much pop (yes, I'm from the west coast...it's POP!! damnit!), whereas with drinking and sex it's not a constant temptation; it's only an occasional one.
Thus, it's much easier to think you've given up something that is only an occasional temptation because you can go really long periods of time without really "craving" it than it is to actually give it up. Further, it's much easier to see that you've given up some addiction when it presents the "craving" hourly or daily.
posted by AeroAangel at 06:58
1 Comments:
i thought you were gone...and yes, i've been too busy for much of anything, but not to fear, more is coming soon...at least until i leave for basic training that is.
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