Isis and Osiris

So recently I've been re-thinking my whole soul mate position. I have a very strong position on this...and up till new year's eve, I had beleived that I had never met this person...ever! Now being somebody who believes in reincarnation, forever is a long time that spans more than a couple of lifetimes. I have suspicions about who I think I've been in other lives...and "memories" that aren't quite real memories, but images that cannot be shaken out of my head of having actually lived in other time periods. The earliest time period that I remember is Ancient Egypt. (For those that may already being going...what the fuck? just stop reading, cuz I don't care if you believe me or not). Now that's about 6000 years ago...a very long time to be lonely. So when people hear me say that I'm tired of being lonely, I'm not talking about just this lifetime. I'm talking about all of the lifetimes that I remember not having somebody really special in my life. Everybody always tries to counter me with, "You're still so young, much to young to act like you've been lonely a really long time." Honey, you have no idea what I'm like...sorry to burst your bubble.

At any rate, the point of all this blog is this: If I've never met my soul mate...ever!!...then how would I feel the loss so deeply? Why would my soul hurt for something it has never felt or known before? This was a thought that set free the last of the lasts. It took away the last bit of wonder I had about Josh . I realized finally that he was not, as I had wanted to believe the perfect person for me because.....I had no memory of him from a previous life. Yes I know, the same bit of information that made me suspect him is now the same information that tells me for sure that he isn't. Go figure. That's how life works, I guess.

So now, I end the post with stories of old that I hold very close to my heart. Isis and Osiris lovers and siblings...a perfect match torn apart by Chaos ( Set ) and doomed to search for each other forever in the afterlives. Isis was a woman associated with all things to do with life and birth. She was a healer and the supreme ruler of all the other gods. And then harmony does its part, takes its toll on her and gives her the perfect match, the antidote to her magic and power as a husband... Osiris the God of the dead, the lord of the underworld...in control of all things dead and gone, but also the god of fertility and the co-supreme God of all other gods in Egypt. The King and Queen, the mother and the seed. It just works...and I love the balance in that story, the yin yang zenness (yes I made that up) of it all.