Bright New Day-4

....The end of the story...though i don't know if it's been long awaited or not...but either way..here's the final chapter...

And so there we were in his room...and everything seemed normal enough for the beginning. But then it started to get really weird.

I don't remember all the steps...but it took some doing. Either way I ended up sitting on his bed and chatting with him...and he was still contstantly saying....

"What are YOU doing here???"

And I would respond with...I don't know...and then finally i realized what he was taling about...he just couldn't believe that i was there with him...like i was treat for him.

...and the truth was that I really honestly and truly did NOT know what I was doing there. He wasn't my normal type and I was nursing some really bad wounds from previous relationships.

But when we kissed...when we kissed that was a whole other ball game...

When we kissed I could see ancient egypt and I could see him and I could see me...I could see us both doing what we were supposed to be doing back then....but it was sooooo reall. Nobody will ever be able to understand what happened that night...even my best friend who called me that night did not fully understand what was happening. But she knew enough to tell me not to write about it that night...and I didn't....but I write about it now because not all that we see is true.

Just because somebody brings up really old "memories" in us does not mean that they are our soul mates. This BoY was NOT my soul mate...but he made me realize something: if I had really never felt my soul mate before...I would never feel the loss of it it in my current life...with him: with BoY, I could remember a really long time ago and it made me feel really happy...and I beleived that that meant he was my "ultimate person" because he brought up that time of my past life but that wasn't the case.

And now I know he's still out there somewhere just waiting for me to find him again...no matter what might happen to make me think otherwise...just when I'm least expecting it: I'll remember ancient egypt and realize that there's lots more to learn...what else do you have to learn? Are YOU with the right person?????? OR did you "just settle?"

There's always an answer...It's up to us to determine the right answer from the many many choices that the gods give us.

*maybe I'll change this some day to make it waaayyy more interesting and to make you feel what I actually felt then...but perhaps not...either way, for now, this is the end of that story...perhaps more will follow...perhaps not.