rarities

i found a four leaf clover today, and i gave it away to a girl who used to work with me at the pizza place...i guess i figured she needed the luck more than i do b/c she's young and having a hard time like i had when i was her age and i feel like i wanna protect her, and i try to say the things that could have helped me when i was going through my really bad young days, but mostly i think i always seem to say the wrong things to her. but i still try to be there for her, cuz maybe if i had had an adult in my life who actually understood when i was going through that, i wouldn't be in as much pain now, but i don't really know for sure...at any rate,i figured, she might be able to use a little luck in her life...a little bright spot in a few days to make her smile...and hopefully see that there's hope at the end of the tunnel.

i always do that with luck though, i never keep it for myself, mostly b/c it doesn't seem to work out too well when i try to keep it...maybe i'm already lucky and i only see it when i find something lucky. like lucky pennies....i always give them away too. who knows? maybe someday somebody will find something lucky and deem to give it to me...but that's not the point.

it's funny how lucky things like clovers are always the freaks of nature...the rare bits of harmony to balance out the rest...and whenever somebody finds one, the first thing they do is pick it, and try to keep it for themselves, they hold onto it like it's their own personal saving grace...but just like other rare things, it's hard to continue to hold onto them and they eventually move on to someone or something else. something that will appreciate it more, love it more. so maybe that's why it's so hard for us unusual people to find that someone special for us, b/c just like the four leaf clover, we don't get to pick out who finds us, the four leaf clover can't get up and seach for the one it wants to be with, it has to wait until it is chosen,and then there's the fact that only really lucky people seem to be able to find the rare four leaf clovers, average everyday joe never seems to find the rare bits of life...maybe i could learn a lesson from that.

the zen of four leaf clovers, they are lucky and special b/c they are rare and beautiful only b/c they are the freak of nature, but they cannot choose who will find them and keep them. we rare finds in people, should be like the clover, and wait to be chosen by the lucky one to find us, and see us for the rarity that we are among all the others that look and act exactly the same. and if we are found by everyday average joe, chances are good that he doesn't realize that we are the four leaf clover hiding amoung all the 3 leaf ones.