On the Horizon
So my birthday is coming up again...far closer than I'd like it be, but far enough away still that I'm not feeling "overly old" yet. At any rate, it gets me thinking about my life...and what I have (or haven't) accomplished in this life. Summation is that I'm not where I thought I would be at this age, but I don't feel too terrible about it because I have done a lot of good things for a lot of people, and while it may not seem like it--with all the trouble I'm having with relationships lately--I'm actually on the up-swing again, which makes me feel ok about my life in general. But the thing is, I've always wanted to be something really GREAT!! like an author or a school teacher (college or high school, not anything younger) or somebody else that makes a daily impact on a lot of people's lives.
Not to discount the good things in my life by any means, cuz I have done a lot of things that I think have made a difference in the lives of other people. I've stood out in the rain, for race after race, for a weekend, helping to "judge" special olympics track and field. I've been a Big Sister with Big Brothers/Big Sisters for a couple years in college, just b/c I wanted to help one child see that not all adults acted like his parent. And I've done lots of other "community service" things--not that I'm trying to brag or rub them in other people's faces...but these are just a few things I've done that make me feel good about myself, and make me feel like I've actually made a difference in the lives of other people.
I also always try to be a good friend to those around me in my life, and help them out of the troubles they are going through, but that's just part of being a friend I think...I definitely don't do it for the gratitude. And I know that the people who really make a difference in our lives are the day-to-day people we meet, the people we are friends with, the ones we love. Even Charles Shultz agrees... (a website based around charles shultz philosophy).
But even with all this that I know, it doesn't stop me from wanting to be something more. It doesn't stop me from needing to be somebody who makes a real impact in people's lives. I don't want to be just a "face" people see on occasion for the rest of my life; I wanna be somebody that people will actually remember.
Not to discount the good things in my life by any means, cuz I have done a lot of things that I think have made a difference in the lives of other people. I've stood out in the rain, for race after race, for a weekend, helping to "judge" special olympics track and field. I've been a Big Sister with Big Brothers/Big Sisters for a couple years in college, just b/c I wanted to help one child see that not all adults acted like his parent. And I've done lots of other "community service" things--not that I'm trying to brag or rub them in other people's faces...but these are just a few things I've done that make me feel good about myself, and make me feel like I've actually made a difference in the lives of other people.
I also always try to be a good friend to those around me in my life, and help them out of the troubles they are going through, but that's just part of being a friend I think...I definitely don't do it for the gratitude. And I know that the people who really make a difference in our lives are the day-to-day people we meet, the people we are friends with, the ones we love. Even Charles Shultz agrees... (a website based around charles shultz philosophy).
But even with all this that I know, it doesn't stop me from wanting to be something more. It doesn't stop me from needing to be somebody who makes a real impact in people's lives. I don't want to be just a "face" people see on occasion for the rest of my life; I wanna be somebody that people will actually remember.
posted by AeroAangel at 13:27
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