And then...the rest

So now i will write the rest of what i wanted to write last night but couldn't get the fucking computer to work...but i have to get ready for work soon, so i hope i don't have any plms with my comp.

so being at my friends for thanksgiving, gave me a good amount of hope for the future...cuz my friends parents have been married a long time and are still dopey cute, like they just started dating...and the host couple was almost the same...gave me hope for the first time in a while about my own prospects for the future.

but last night i was starting to question a lot of things...couldn't help it i guess since the person i was out with was kinda down and thinking about his stuff all night...kinda rubs off i guess. and the thoughts were something like this...when is it time to realize that we should just settle for what's available instead of holding out for everything? should i settle for one of the people i have sitting right in front of me who wants to give me everything? or should i keep waiting for someone to come along who will be the light of my world? or should i let go of those in front of me that i would consider to be "settling" and try for the one (s) i know now that i think i could be happy with? when is it time to just take a risk? and when is it time to play it safe? this question taunts me often...especially since most of the guys that fall for me, are guys i don't want to be with and the ones i really like, don't fall for me. what to do? what to do?